Quote of the Day

"Sometimes we must give up what we want now for what we want most"

In hindsight, decisions were a cake walk when I was young. Knowing each right decision would lead to something better was easy enticement for sacrificing in the moment and getting me closer to what I knew I wanted most. 

Like purchasing new school clothes and waiting to wear them until the first day, therefore making the first day of the year that much better. Or taking a trip to New Zealand over taking drivers education in order to be able to drive right when I was 16. I knew one of those choices came along only once in a lifetime. I would be older than 16, forever. There is not enough time to mention the many occasions I avoided certain social outing in order to maintain personal integrity. Even the choice to be a dirt poor married couple so both Mick and I could go to and graduate college, seemed reasonably easy to make.  

Now that I'm here in tunnel vision mommy land, one of the places where I wanted most to be, I find that I struggle with deciding what is most important and what it is I am willing to give up in order to get there. Maybe it's the thick tunnel darkness that seems to go on forever and makes it hard to see the light at the end. Or the seemingly menial tasks that I feel never get me ahead and make me feel crazy.

Incidentally, tonight I chose to have family time instead of going to Zumba. Let me just say that because of my day, I should have gone to Zumba for a great escape, for exercise, for clarity of mind, but I chose not to. I could not let my actions teach my children that they were less important than Zumba. Not going to lie, it still hurts to give up what we want now, but I love these little people more. After our family time, I knew I had made the right choice. But for the record, I am not giving up Zumba on Wednesday. This crazy mom needs it.